a thing;

i’m taking a long-term semi hiatus, for god knows how long, maybe forever. reason why under the cut, so you won’t have to read the longass post. 

i’m not leaving, just taking less time on here. i have a queue and will be answering all messages. 

firstly, i had to drop latin for next year due to the amount of time i “spent on schoolwork” over the past year, and since my mom is so strict over computer time, at least half of my schoolwork time is spent on the internet. i love latin and i loved my teachers from the past two years, and i feel like i’ve failed them. high school is about to start and honestly, my grades are incredibly important. 

secondly, there’s been so much negativity of late, and i don’t want that haunting me; i have enough problems irl without tumblr making it worse. i’m aware that a lot of people are leaving, and i believe this is why.

lastly, i want to get on with my life and do volunteer work or jobs and maybe look for things past tumblr and the internet. it’s kinda distracting. 

i look at my future and i just see this black hole of nothingness and i want to do so much and i want to someday be somebody  and i’m feel like i’m just wasting away here and all the things i want to accomplish, all the things i want to do, they’re just floating away.

a lot of the times i don’t even see the point of blogging anymore and it should make me happy but it doesn’t.  

so i’m gonna take a leave and maybe write a few screenplays and get those novel ideas down and perhaps make all state orchestra and win a few flute competitions or enter my writing somewhere and maybe, god knows, maybe even get a job or internship. and i’ve got my eye set on graduating valedictorian. 

if i’ve unfollowed you, this is why. i’m sorry if it’s upset you. 

i do love you all, okay? okay.